...Stupid Love...

Love begins with friendship. Yes, I do believe in that, but, what if you fall in love with your friend? Is it possible? What if your friend doesn’t feel the love the same as yours? What would you feel? Are you ready to get hurt and are you willing to move on even though you knew to yourself that you really love him?

The first time we met was when we were just still grade five pupils. He had his Christmas vacation here in Cebu. He’s from Masbate. His family said that he should finish his elementary years there and start another level here in Cebu.

We were really very good friends before. I was the one who started making friends with him because he was really very shy. From that day on, our friendship started. We really had very happy and funny days together! We played “patintero” with our other friends and enjoyed playing some sports like basketball and badminton. We also played cards inside his room together with his cousins. We didn’t only have happy and funny moments but of course, sweet moments. Yes! You heard it right! We had sweet moments with no malice yet. As days passed, I already started having special feelings for him.

Everyday, I wake-up as early as 6:00 in the morning just to visit him in his room. Would you believe that! Am I that very willing? Well….. I think so….. “Hehehehe”.

Christmas and New Year days have passed. Sadly, the time has come. The time for him to go back home to Masbate. I really felt very sad. In fact, I almost cried when he said that he’s already living that day but then, I hindered my tears from falling.

A few months after, my friend told me something about him. She told me that he revealed his special feelings for me. I didn’t show any reactions but deep inside, I really felt very, very happy.

Months have passed but still I waited for him. Although I had crushes on other guys but still he’s the only one inside my heart.

“It’s Vacation time! Weeeeh! He’s coming back here in Cebu again! Thank God! Yehey!”

I was really very excited to see him again! I fixed my hair properly and put some powder on my face. I was shocked when I saw him! I can’t believe it! He’s now already very tall and very handsome! He had already changed a lot and one important change in him was his feelings for me. I didn’t know that his feeling for me was already gone because they said another girl came into his life. Want to know who that girl is? She’s none other than, my BEST FRIEND!

With that thought, I was so depressed. I cried for how many nights and regretted all the time wasted waiting for him, all the sacrifices and all the efforts of making poems especially for him. Here’s one of the poems I made when I was already depressed:

All my life,

I’ve been looking for

Someone to be with,

Someone I could open up to,

Someone I could share my innermost

Thoughts and feelings with,

Without feeling awkward about it

I’ve spent so much time

Searching for that one special

Person who’d love me

Both when I’m at my best

Or at my worst

Someone who believes in me

And inspires me to be

Even more than I am

I’ve almost ran out of hope

Of finding that someone

Until I found you

You were much more than what I thought

Your beautiful eyes,

Kissable cheeks, nice nose

And most of all your BEST traits

Inspired me most

But there’s one thing you’ve got

To know that really hurts my feelings

And that is, you’ve found someone

Special whom I guess you’ll love forever…..

Now, I have already moved on. I have to accept the truth. I know it’s not going to be that easy, but I guess, I have to do this. By the way, my best friend and he didn’t have a chance to be together because she loves me so much. She didn’t sacrifice the friendship we had with that stupid love and I thank her for that. By now, he already has his own love life with again another woman who is a year older than him and fortunately, they’re still together for more than 6 months already. Furthermore, I’m glad to say that until now, we are still very close friends.